not a typical day

Today was unlike any other. I've been doing as much baby reading as possible in my free time. Although I haven't been able to keep up on everything I have tried to stay up to speed at least on a weekly basis. In my latest late night readings I've learned that my hormone levels are out of whack and that my emotions could at any time get the best of me.

Well...today I woke up and my emotions attacked. I couldn't explain what was happening but I felt powerless against myself. Like a 5 year old trapped in a 26 year old body. The littlest thing meant the world to me and for a slight second I might actually have thought my own world was about to crumble. To make matters worse, when I tried to explain my feelings to my loving husband I clearly recall him giggling as I tried to hold back my tears from flaring up even more. Again, picture a little girl in despair...I could hardly breathe let alone explain what I was feeling. Joel really did have the best intentions and was doing his best to understand me. I really just caught him off guard and he didn't know how to respond. Plus I looked ridiculous.

The moment I got my emotions all out of my system I was back to my old self. I was even able to joke about it with Joel later in the day and share the story with most of my friends. It was funny, made no sense, and was so random. I decided it's best to categorize any future happenings like this as 'incidents'. It helps me to feel a little less crazy and I find I can laugh at myself much easier.